hallo again. i write to you from holar, a very small village of 100 people (seems like far less), in good spirits.
the workcamp here is nearly done. we (two leaders, from estonia and romania, myself, and two french girls, who have since left us) have worked in isolated farms (which had not been touched in 10 years) surrounded by mountains and in a sweet smelling mini forest, as well as in the village itself. we have made walking paths through the forest, cut grass, painted benches, taken out horse fences and ridden on the back of a tractor's trailer. we have become good friend with each other and have also met some really cool icelandic guys here. oli (olafur) who is an amazing chef has provided us with food (a surprise to us) and always joined us as we ate our meals to tell us about interesting things. and maggi (magnus) who has been our Everything Else, telling us what needs to be done work-wise, driving us to Incredible sights around the area, acting as an ambulance driver, and overall being very friendly and always talking and teaching us new things about the culture and history of iceland.
in this place i also had the moment i was dreaming of prior to coming to iceland. it was perfect.
i woke up to the sun inside a warm summer house. not a sound i could hear.
on the other side of my window: snow-capped mountains - 5 of them, smiling - towering over the village. a rush of (who else) Love and Peace swept over me and i entered into Perfect Peace in Perfect Silence.
i read this verse:
"singers and dancers alike say
"all my springs are in You.""
ps 87.7
at this time i am realizing that God is in a whole lot more than i ever thought before.
i've found Him in sneaky places.
during this time i was also notified that i was, after all the waiting and doubt, accepted into the environmental science program at bcit. it was a strange moment as i had that futureplan forgotten but here i was responding back that i no longer was interested in the program at this time. it felt risky to turn down an opportunity which would give me some comfort and direction in knowing i knew what i would be doing for the next two years of my life, resulting in my life being seemingly less together, without a career direction - of not knowing exactly what i will be doing with my life but at is point i have realized that it does not matter what i want to Do. all i know is how i want to Be. and i quite like Being in God's hands, wherever He is leading me. i'm figuring out more and more every day how i want to live my life (how i want to Be) but am not so concerned about the doing. i couldn't be bothered to stress about what i want to do right now - i'm just taking great joy in my life as a Human Being in Christ. so to make this decision of turning down the next step towards which was once My Life Plan could seem a bit daunting, but to make this decision in peace was very comforting.
i will leave you with a few (visual) "songs" which i am writing for the seeds organization which i am so blessed to be a part of. they're all so great and i feel like i need to write them something in appreciation of how they have been so Life Giving to me, so here are two of seven "songs" i have written so far... they are all based around nature and places and experiences which i have been a part of.
a song written for your short legs trudging through the tall grass
i feel as though i have lost
my feet
they are somewhere else
(probably) Being so lazy
well they are most likely flapping all about in the sea
effortlessly so.
i would wish they would come back to me
as i succumb to the forces of these long fingers
hanging onto what remains of my body.
nature has won.
a song written for the one bird (out of a flock of 200) who could not fly:
worry not about their eyes
gazing down to the deep blue
gazing down at you,
stuck in a body which refuses to rise.
for Patience waits for you
and Hope wants to flow through your mind.
Contentment whispers from the bottom of the ocean:
"swim with me then, to the ends of the earth."
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